Your Psychotic Friend.....

What does she have that i don't???

2005-12-10T03:19:38Z

well right now my life has just gotten from alright 2 i dunno y i even bother/try to be happy with someone.so yea n.eways 2 my knowledge Bird was single.Guess i was mistaken big time.Finds out i finally get the courge to have a convoersation with him which didn't go 2 well cuz cusin called me over but we talked more then usual n it made me feel good that at least i talked n stuff.Now i come home n i c this bulitin good damn u myspace*sighs*neways it was from bird n he said he had new photos so i wanted 2 see em so me n my stupid self did.n.eways i was readin the comments left on that picture n it said "my b/f the cross dresser" n i was like "no fuckin way i don't believe it"so i see this pic of this chick n him here it is

n this is her

i mean i don't compare 2 her im ugly n fat n everything else n she's pretty i see y he picked her.i dunno the thing thay im mad about is that she's 18!jeez gosh i mean i like him but im only 17 n he'll be 16 soon i guess so not so much of an age difference so i really dunno y i try i really have no clue at all.......

Bow down!lol

2005-11-17T03:26:48Z

My future hubby ^.^ how sexy he is!!i love tom 4 inventing myspace he's my hero now!!n so ish clarissa 4 findin me his profile :D

gir_rox_my_soxs @ 2005-11-14T23:34:00

2005-11-15T05:08:24Z

Today wasn't such a good day for me.It started ever since this morning.I know Ashley didn't mean to make me feel bad but she did.I was like "Hey Ashley"n she said "hey"then we kept talking n she said "today's gonna be gay because stacy's not gonna be here".So that made me feel like shit because oviously i couldn't make her day better n it made me feel like a worthless friend*sighs*

2:Talked 2 Clarissa and Mariel and helped clarissa plan her b-day party and just basicly chilled.Got my work back n the essay we where supposed 2 do bout uniforms i got a 6!!wtf i think the teacher was on crack.

4:Did an essay about if i was an object wat i would be n i didn't know what to be so i picked a teddy bear.Thats basicly all i did n talk 2 this dude named Jonathan just like my bro he's pretty cool.

Lunch:was weird i mean totally.I didn't hangout with Ashley cuz she went with other ppl.n kari wasn't here either so i chilled with j.t.i know weird.but i chilled with him n he talked 2 me n said he was sowwy bout everything n how he didn't keep his promise to me and stuff.n i just went along with it n i was like sure alright it's okay don't worry about it.what happened happened the past is in the past n you can't change it so whateva.that was how lunch was j.t. sayin bs 2 me n stuff oh n i saw birdie.He was right infront of me while j.t was talking n i was gonna say hi but he was with 2 chicks n i didn't want to bother him.but at least i got to see him today so it's all good.

6:was okay trying to get to of my friends to go out with eachother cuz they obiously like eachother but they don't want to make any moves so im trying to play cupid 4 once im my life.

That was my day at school it was pretty gay actually didn't really have that much fun*sighs*oh well i hope tomorrow will be much better

Holy Fuck!!!

2005-11-11T04:34:21Z

Well i haven't updated a while n this entry is prolly gonna take me a while since my thumb still hurts and it prolly won't be long.Well one with my day

2:Was fun,didn;t really do nothing just learned about mrs.smith's weird childhood and talked to Clarissa bout birdie n bands.That was basicly all we did.

4:For once in her life the teacher was pretty cool.She let us talk and we only had to do one worksheet n thats basicly it.

Lunch:Met Stacy like usual n then we walked around like normal then stayed at our new spot i guess u can call it.N.eways the weird thing was that J.T talked 2 me n he wasn't acting weird towards me n stuff so yea that was strange.Then he said i gave him a look n Stacy explained it 4 me lol

6:This period was when the major trama happend.Mr.Morales was like "okay u guys need to make a vingetta"n stuff.So i got my cardboard n began to cut a hole in it.I guess i spaced out while doing it cuz when i looked down i saw the blade stabbed in my thumb.This is wat i yelled out when i saw this "HOLY FUCK!!!!!!!OH SHIT!!!!!OH SHIT!!!!"then i just sat there and stared at it because i couldn't believe that happened 2 me.I finally snapped back into reality when Sheryl was like "Nashalie go to the bathroom n wash it off"so i got outta my chair and ran to the bathroom.All i did was pour a lil water on it n then i saw how deep it was.It looks like i cut a chunk from my thumb.N.eways before i could enter the class again my whole hand was covered in blood. n i was like "mr.... i..cut myself"n he's like "what?"so i showed him my bloody hand n he said come over here n he turned on the water faucets in his room n he was like "You'll be alright".As i kept my hand in the water i began to cry not because of the pain but because of how deep it was.Then as i was crying the only person that came up 2 me was brian n he was like "are u okay"n i looked at him and showed him my thumb n he was like "OUCH!!"n then he said i should lick it i wanted 2 hit him but by that time i was really feeling the pain.Then i got taken to the training room n this lady cleaned it and bandaged it 4 me.Then i came back n mr.morales was like "Feeling better now?"n i said "i'll surrvive im just in pain"i was bout 2 cry again but i saw how his eyes became teary so i made a joke so that he wouldn't cry i was like "they should make those blades for leftys cuz u've never heard of no righty cutting themselves."n he laughed abit.I really appricate mr.morales cuz he really cared about what happened 2 me n wasn't like other teachers ^.^.

well now im home n im watching famliy guy n that was my amazing day lol.im out cuz my thumb won't stop bleedin n it hurts like a fuckin bitch.peace n love u all!!!!

gir_rox_my_soxs @ 2005-11-06T23:15:00

2005-11-07T04:20:38Z

I dunno y but i reallly wanna cry right now!!!!!*sighs*

Who stole the cookies from the cookie jar??

2005-10-13T04:14:53Z

well today was an awsome day better then the rest you could say.

1st:finished this project wit my group then took a test.amazingly enough it was pretty easy.then played dots and tic-tac-toe with frank.Then talked to all the guys in my class bout video games.i surriously looked like a whore cuz there was like 20 guys around me lol.did that all period then frank gave me his numba n we continued talkin till the class ended 3 hours later lol. I truely feel like im a P.I.M.P!!lol

Lunch:hung out wit stacy,kari,ashley.had fun yet got a lil mad when stacy spilled soda on me but its all good it was no biggy.sowwy ashley 4 ur chicken =(.Acted stupid n hyper like usual n yea thats about it.

3rd:was alright talked 2 kyle for a few seconds then he moved next to me and we talked 4 like 15 to 20 mins until the bell rang.

5th:sean sat down next 2 me and we couldn't talk so we started writing notes 2 each other.the funny thing was that when i was gonna give him a note he wrote one at the same time lol.it was pretty fun just wrote 2 sean all class period nothing much.

Afterskool:met stacy with sean n stacy said "my ass looks like cheese"n me n sean both agreed it didn't.then sean went and smelled stacy n said she didn't smell like cheese lol it was weird yet funny.got home and was watchin house of mouse when stacy first called me n we made plans.then i was supposed 2 call her n frank but at 3:40 i dunno wat happend but i passed out n woke up around 7.i got up and looked around the house n i was all alone.so i called my mom n she said that me n stacy could go 2 the movies friday.then i called stacy again and talked 2 her 4 like an 1 hr an 30mins longest i've ever talked 2 her had fun.then i hung up cuz i was gonna eat me some chinese food.yes i know im a fatty lol.then just got outta the shower a few mins ago n i have nothing more to say so yea...oh stacy i would buy a million copies of ur book if u make one ^_^.well ttyl love mucho xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

gir_rox_my_soxs @ 2005-10-05T23:36:00

2005-10-06T03:51:02Z

List 10 things that bring you a moment of joy:
Tag six friends to do the same.
In no particular order..

watching famliy guy
listening 2 music
watching movies
hang with friends
spiderman
duckies
munkies
penguins
stacy
ashley,lauren lol count that as 1

i dunno anyone who fucking like doing this =p

okay n.eways this is how my day went;

2:went 2 Mrs.Bakers class n didn't do anything cuz i already had turned in all my work except the whole "get in touch with your emotions"paper which was so fucking hard 4 my cuz i really ain't a very emotional person.

4:DID LOTS OF FUCKING SPANISH WORK!!!HOW I HATE THAT CLASS!!!n.eways the teacher was being a bitch so we had 2 stay in class till everyone finished there stupid work.I was so pissed off after that.

Lunch:it was okay i guess did the usual hung out wit stacy,lauren with kari 4 a minute or 2 then walked by Carlos i decided like i've told u stacy not to speak 2 him n.emore cuz he's being so stupid n he gave me the nastest look just cuz i said hi when he was with his "girlfriend"

6:didn't do nothing just sat there and listend to the people around me.it was pretty fun cuz this dude kept talking bout penguins n how they could penguin bitch slap u and how he's gonna get a penguin tattoo lol.

Bus ride:Was gay!!plain and simple no good music on the radio at all and Amanda didn't talk 2 me like she usually does.

Home:watched volcano high then ate some ramen noodles and feel asleep.woke up 6 hours later and ate me some chef boy r dee then watched tv until now that i'm writing this.Well imma go and take a shower so i'll tty all latter peace n love.

imma goth/skater punk??what the hell??

2005-10-04T03:47:52Z

--Redneck--
1] Do you believe the south will rise again?nope
2] Do you drive a four-wheel drive automobile?nope
3] Do you live in a mobile home? nope
4] Is your car still primer gray?nope
5] Do you like country music?nope
6] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?nope
7] Do you own a cowboy hat? nope
[8] Do you live on more then 2 acres?nope
9] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?no
Total YES:0

-Goth--
1] Do you wear black eyeliner?: at times
2] Is most of your clothing dark?: yep
3] Do you think about death often?:not really
4] Do you want to die?: not now at least
5] Are you a social outcast?:nope
6] Are you pale?:kinda for a puerto rican lol
7] Do you like Hot Topic?: yep
8] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?:yep
9] Are you nice?: yep
Total YES: 6

--Skater Punk--
1] Can you skateboard?: no
2] Do you wear Vans?: yep
3] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?HELLZ FUCKIN YES X123456
4] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops? nope
5] Do you watch the x-games?yep
6] Do you have any piercings?: si
7] Do you like/wear mohawks?on some ppl
8] Do you wear Band t-shirts:nope
9] Have you called someone a poser.si
Total 6

--Prep--
1] Do you say the word "like": nah
2] Do you shop at Abercrombie and Fitch?: no
3] Do you pop the collar? no
4] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?: no
5] Is the only nerd u like Seth Cowen? ?no cuz i have no fuckin clue who he is?
6] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH? nah
7] Do you like pop music: no
8] Do you want/have a little dog?: nope
Total YES: 0

--Hippie--
1] Is your hair long?: yea
2] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?: no
3] Do you want peace?: yeah
4] Do you want to save the animals? si
5] Do you think war is unneccesary?:si
6] Is love essential in your life?: no
7] Have you smoked pot? no
8] Do you like classic rock and trippy music? no
Total YES: 4

--Gangsta--
1] Do you act ghetto?: at times
2] Do you wear do-rags?: no
3] Do you like hip-hop?: some
4] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?: no
5] Do you believe he's alive? yes
6] Do you like afros?: si
7] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?: yes
8] Do you like to dance?: nope dunno how 2 lol
9] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit: no
Total YES: 5

--Emo--
1] Do you cry often?: no
2] Do you wear hoodies: yes they rock my world!!!!
3] Do you like soft music: i guess
4] Do people not understand you? dunno ask them lol
5] Do you write your own songs?: nope
6] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark:yes
7] Do you cut your hair: no
8] Are you lonely: nope
9] Is Ohio for lovers?:huh?
Total : 3

--Surfer--
1] Do you surf? no
2] Do you wear flip flops all year-round?: no
3] Is your hair shaggy?: no
4] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? fuck u biatches hellz nah!
5] Do you own any pairs of shorts?: yes
6] Are you tanned? kinda
7]do you love the beach? ish okay
8] Do you want to be at the beach right now?: sure
9] Do you hate tourists?:THEY SHOULD GO back yo where whever they came from gosh!!lol
Total YES:4

--Geek--
1] Do you wear glasses: no
2] Do you get good grades?: at times
3] Do you use an inhaler?: no
4] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets? no
5] Does your mom pick out your clothes?: no
6] Are you on the computer often?: yes
7] Do you ever get picked on?: no
8] Do you look forward to go to school?: no
9] Are you shy around the opposite sex?: no
10] Do you have braces?: no
Total YES: 2

Whichever you got most "yes's" on is what you are.....put in the subject what you are.....and repost.........

well anyways i did this cuz i was trying 2 forget the twin n his all black hair now.omg im so sad it's not funny.His hair is like mine now wtf??he looked so hott with his blonde n black hair*sighs*WHY IS EVERYONE FUCKING CHANGING????I WISH Everything would stay the same but i know thats never going to happen.Well love u all mucho mwhaz xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

REST IN PEACE HOTT TWIN GUYS BLONDE AND BLACK HAIR
2004-2005 =(

gir_rox_my_soxs @ 2005-09-24T01:59:00

2005-09-24T06:01:09Z

Answer me biatches ^_^ <3 ya

2005-09-20T02:53:48Z

- - - - - - » YES or N0 or Maybe
Am I???
cute? :
Kind? :
Loud? :
Shy? :
Weird? :
Selfish? :
Ghetto? :
Crazy?:
Nice? :
Mean?:
Immature? :
Rude?:
Cool? :
Stupid? :
Caring? :
Mature? :
A friend? :
More than a friend? :
Talkative? :
Boring? :
Hott :
Creative? :
Smart? :
A flirt? :
A psycho? :
Athletic? :
Confusing? :
Sweet? :
Annoying? :
Funny? :
Hyper? :
Laid back? :
Perfect? :

- - - - - - » iF Y0U C0ULD
Give me a new name, what would it be ?:
Hook me up with someone, who would it be ?:
Do one thing with me, it would be ?:
Drop me one piece of advice, it would be ?:

- - - - - - » W0ULD Y0U
Kiss me ?:
Be with me ?:
Ever go out with me ?:
If you already have, would you do it again ?:
Marry me if you could ?:

- - - - - - » QUESTi0NS
What is my phone number?:
Which song reminds you of me?:
When is my birthday?:
Who is/are my best friend/s?:
Where did we meet?:
Have you ever had a dream about me? Describe it.:
If you could change one thing about me what would it be?:
What do you love about me?:
Describe me in 3-5 words...

gir_rox_my_soxs @ 2005-09-14T23:28:00

2005-09-15T03:52:37Z

well i haven't updated since 4 eva so imma start of wit my day

1st period:was boring i had to do some history notes n then i have a project in which i didn't know i had cuz i was late 2 the class n the last 2days.

3rd period: was gay very!!!teacher is a sexist he didn't say anything 2 kyle when he walked in without a pass but he did 2 this chick not cool.Then i really wonder why i do work in his class he doesn't even look at it all he does is sign it.N i'm sick of Linda askin me every fuckin class period if Stacy said somethin bout her. Even if Stacy would I would never tell her why the fuck would I? i don't care if anyone tells her im writtin "shit"bout her in my lj n stuff lol.Well continuing the "linda"subject i think that she and josh need to grow up cuz she just needs to drop the whole "stacy thing" n josh just needs to grow up and be a man n not let her boss him around n stuff*shrugs* oh well watever floats his boat.

Lunch:was boring though i had fun hanging out wit my friends cuz i love them 2 death n i missed u lauren i hope u feel betta mwhaz love ya <3

5th period:was boring as well wrote jimmy back a whole page i'm so proud of myself*claps*then i got back a quiz n i got a 40 somthing don't member n.eways i had guessed the last 6 problems n i got 5 right i only missed 1 i rock!!then wrote some notes n got hw and my progress report since she isn't gonna be here on friday. im failin i knew it but i could get a d if i turn some shit in i have a 54.1 so thats a pretty high f i guess*shugs*

After skool i had to meet stacy though i couldn't cuz my teacher was being the dike that she is and wouldn't let us out cuz of ppl who talked durring class so i couldn't meet her. I'm sowwy bout that*hugs* lol.Oh n stop writin bout the fl shirts stacy gosh thats a thing from the past lmao ^_^.well n.eways i had wed. skool it was ok lated an eternity but i surrvived.I managed 2 do my geometery hw n write stacy a note which i hadn't writen 2 her since 4eva so i'll give it 2 ya 2morrow morrning.Oh n omg i saw J.T. today lmao he looked like such a fucking goth poser wannabe omg it was hillarious i just started laughing while i walked over to the caffeteria b4 wed. skool started.God i really don't know what i saw in him*shakes head while laughing*

N.eways i just wanted to say lastly b4 i go ppl should grow up n stop acting childishly.That goes 2 u heather if u read this.Not in a mean way but u understand.Stacy just asked u a ? cuz she doesn't know why ur arguing and u didn't answer her n thats just very immature.Also me n u used 2 be really tight but now u hardly say hi 2 me only if i walk up 2 u n scream ur name or somethin it's like ur not u ur a totally different person n it suxs ass but if this is the way u wanna be then so be it.I think people should just fucking chill n stop bitchin bout the little things that happen in skool it's just so gay thats why drama sucks so much fuckin ass it's pointless if you don't like a person then u should tell it 2 their face n not start shit n talk about them behind their back.N ppl who spread rumors are fucking bastards who just like startin shit wit other ppl just 4 their amusment.I just personally don't think all this is meaningful.People should just stay outt other ppls shit n leave every1 do watever the fuck they want.But thats never gonna happen.Welcome to the stupid fucked up gay life of high skool*sighs*

GOTS ME A NEW COMPY WOOT WOOT!!!!!

2005-09-09T03:42:20Z

YAY *dances even though is feeling like crap*.I'm so happy I told my mami to get me some doritos since i had a craving 4 them ^_^ n she brought home a new compy woot!!smiles*now im no longer compy less thank the lord!!n.eways thats all i wanted 2 say love ya all mucho love mwhaz!!!!

sometimes i wanna run away.....

2005-08-27T03:38:09Z

My friend NarR wrote this n i thought it was awsome wat do u think??

The way we all feel inside

the day you died was the day i cried, only to express the way we feel inside. we scream we yell we say i hope you burn in hell, all in attempts to try and hide. we say this and we say that only to hope that we'll all come back. in the end i tried to hide the horrible ways that i feel inside, one day ago and two days left i said i loved you and thought that was best. but when we fought and when we argued only then did we see that i couldn't live without you. whats done is done and whats said is said, i only wish that you weren't dead. a moment too soon and a second to late, nothing to do to change your fate. i wish i was there to kneel by your side, so you could have felt all the tears i've cried. but all in good time, you soon will see, how very much indeed that you needed me. and now that your gone, so very far away, i wish i could have gone, and you could have stayed. so farewell to you i sadly say, a tattoo on my chest is how i'll remember this day.

i dont really know how well i can cope. all i have now is a tiny string of hope. with this little string i'll tie my heart down, and maybe sumday i can turn this frown upside down. but until that day the pain will stay, and to the lord i pray your soul to take. because when i die, i'll go to hell but at least i'd know that you are well. so until i die, i say goodbye and for you i go and move on with my life.

might be getting a new compy yay ^_^....

2005-08-01T04:23:10Z

well my mom came back yesterday woot!i'm kinda happy yet kinda sad cuz now i gots 2 go 2 bed at 1:30 *sighs*just great...n.eways today was another sucky day..i almost had gotten a laptop but no fucking sams club was being a bitch so yea no new lap top 4 me =(.Well today i didn't do much cept go 2 sams club thats bout it.Very boring day 4 me..well umm i might get a new compy 2morrow thats a plus 4 me cuz mine ish still workin after it was flooded wit water lol a miracle i tell u but now it's having problems.Well if i ever get this new compy i want it's gonna be awsome it has a flat screen n it is cd-rw and dvd-rw ish great.I hope i get it it's only 650 so it isn't alot of money...well i dunno wat more 2 say i g2g soon so peace out....

sometimes when ppl say bye that might be the last time you see or hear from them......

2005-07-26T04:18:04Z

well right now im sad but hey i can't do anything to stop him...I won't talk to matt till september n nither will u stacy....unless we write to him which im planing to try n do....n.eways im really going 2 miss him...i've stayed up countless days jst talking to him...*sighs*on another note i almost died 2day..hard 2 believe but true.I was with my cusin in his car n he almost got into 2 car crashes one after the other..we were going to get hit sideways n face on luckliy he turned fast n missed both...im still here..4 those of u who care.im fine nothing happend 2 either of us..luckily..will i have nothing more to say cept here this piccy is for lauren.....hope u likes....

ME IN NEKO-JINN FORM ^_^....

i really wish i could write spanish.....

2005-07-25T06:00:25Z

no puedo creer que salieron esto realmente me lastiman tanto...no puedo mirar su cuadro ni el suyo...hablo 2 él n ella pero lastima tanto...i el no sepa i realmente lo ama tanto que realmente lo hago.puedo nunca ser feliz que lo deseo siempre i tan que malo lo ame con el resto de los pedazos a la izquierda en mi
corazón.realmente lo amo pero conjeturo que él no siente igual.le pregunté si él tuvo gusto de mí como amigo o como más entonces ése y él dichos más.realmente deseo tan saber porqué fueron hacia fuera.porque le pregunté si él con mí y él me dijo que él no porque era más joven entonces él y ella es más joven entonces yo pero él todavía decidía ser con ella porqué??dios cómo odio mi vida de mierda.....

i think my aunt is actually right.......

2005-07-25T04:38:11Z

i think that my aunt might be right when she told me that i was going 2 hell.I mean god doesn't really like me at all.All he's done is made me suffer.He took away one of my bestest friends ever.Then he took away someone i really truly trusted....and now he's trying to take away 2 of the most important ppl in my life.. i really don't know why?is it because i don't pray that often??? is it because im only going to church now because im being forced too???why is it???im just curious...all my life i've had to go through more shit then some ppl some ppl have gone through wat i have gone through but some have not...am i such a bad person for all this shit to happen 2 me???right now im just so lost....i really am..i don't think my life is worth living anymore....and it's not because of wat happened yesterday...it has something 2 do with that but not entirly....How many more ppl am i going to lose??I wonder if god is just testing me but i really don't know...why does it have to be me???why can't all of this just go away.....i guess it will never go away...it's always going to be there haunting me...in my mind...until one day i just die.......

life is but an endless nightmare which i try to wake up from but i never could....

2005-07-24T08:01:04Z

What can i say tonight has been one of the most horriblest nights ever lets make it #2.But i really don't want to go into much detail cuz i don't think it's appropite.What can a person do when they r split in 2 not knowing which side to pick because they knew the would lose someone dearly to them and they didn't want to have to choose????What can someone do when they find out that they broke someone who they were very close toos heart because that so and so never told them that they liked this person???Life is full of so many questions in which us a people sometimes don't know what to answer,say,or do at the must difficult times.Most ppl live a happy life though others live a dreadful one in which they wake up every day wanting to die because they know life isn't going to get any better for them.I am one of those ppl who feels that they can never find true happiness.But im fine with out it i guess.Everytime i find it i lose it......

i wish i had wings...lol i wish alot don't i ^_^

2005-07-23T08:16:37Z

And of course yet another bloody piccy

i wish i was a neko-jiin lol

2005-07-23T07:58:37Z

And last but not least the very cool blood sucking piccy ^_^

i miss my mami =( lol

2005-07-20T11:51:18Z

well umm yea like my subject says i miss my mom.she just left an hour ago to go to miami cuz 2morrow she's leaving from there.anyways i know it's kinda strange 4 me 2 be awake at this time cuz i usually aint.im really sad cuz i miss her.i know i may get mad at her n she may say some stupid shit 2 me but i really love her alot since i've never had my dad with me.she means alot 2 me.im so sad i have just drank 2 cups of pepsi a couple of mins ago n i might drink somemore cuz i ain't tired.i don't want her 2 go...im going to miss her alot!!no one to argue with no one to mess around with*sighs*damn oh well how r u all doin?hopefully good.well i'll ttyl cya peace.....

your lying to me when you tell me "your life will get better"......

2005-06-30T05:13:44Z

well my life still hasn't gotten any better.it's still the some old peace of shit life it has always been it probably has gotten worse.One of the ppl that i trusted n i thought trusted me has blocked me.I guess he only put up with me because i talked 2 his cuzin i guess he really didn't like me after all.My mom told me today that i turned out retarded daughter because of my drug addict dad.she tells me that almost all the time but this time it go to me n hurts to hear such words from a person u love.I really don't know why i'm such a good person or y i'm such a good daughter or friend..i really don't know sometimes i truly wish i had never been born in the first place.I shouldn't care anymore i really don't care about me but i do care about all my friends.Theyre the only thing that have me here.I would have so ran away or got a knife n just stabbed myself over n over again .I've looked at knives in my hands countless times but i never do anything because i don't want to hurt the people i care for.I guess i should think more about me then other ppl but im not like that i don't give a FUCK!!!about me i could die 4 all i care.I hate my self n my life.I really don't know y im writting this i guess it takes some of my pain away.well i'm going to go cry abit.take care n love ya all.

Ewwwww......

2005-06-27T07:30:29Z

Well yesterday was pretty okay day but the weird thing was that i was in a car with my cousins n one of them was sleepin n the other was next to me.Well we were drinking some slurpees n his straw broke so i gave him mine and i was like spell "slurpee"n he was like "Slurpee"and i was like "you cheated you looked at the cup"and we laughed n he winked at me!!!!That was so creeppy!!!!Oh n before that at the 7-11 my other cousin grabbed me around the waist and then put his hands on my waist!!!god is my famliy going crazy!!!I'm there cousin not some chick!!ewww i can't believe that happened i think im in the twilight zone lol.well i just wanted 2 tell u guys bout my weirds cousins lmao
peace n love!!!

I just got a new digi cam but my compys being gay!!!!!

2005-06-25T04:34:25Z

well i just got me a new cam n imms start addin new piccys just as soon as i fixy my compy ish being gay n it has problems lol.neways today i didn't do anything in the moring cause i woke up at 3 and burshed my teeth and took a shower and then i just watched tv until 5.I didn't eat anything till like 6 and it was just a sandwich lol that was my breakfast/lunch.Then my moms like lets go to the store so we went and afterwards we went 2 fazolis n i had me some pizza yumm it was great..then i was like "mami lets go ride some go-carts"but we coudn't go cuz my stepdad was pissed so we couldn't go cuz he wanted 2 go back home.That was all that happened 2day i just got outta the shower a couple of mins ago n am bored outta my mind....i hate going out wit my stepdad it suxs ass...well take care n love ya all

cruel jokes............

2005-06-12T05:38:37Z

well today was a pretty boring day for me.woke up around 12 n was alone at my house till like 3 or 4 in the afternoon.then my mom came back n famliy came over plus the famliy whos visting 4rm p.r came over.they talked n talked n laughed n talked some more but i wasn't payin attention i was 2 busy listening 2 my cd player.well after a while since it was my gramps b-day they decided 2 get him outta the house while me n my mom got everything set up 4 when he came back.he was surprised n happy.n that made me feel pretty good.then my stepdad was being an ass so i ent 2 my grandmas room where me n my other to cousins started boxing cuz we was bored.after that while i was in my cousins car i heard this song about this guy who his bro died n that all he had where memories of him n it reminded me of adrian cuz he was like a bro 2 me so i was so sad from that point on.we got to lake eola n then my mom calls me n says that she's gonna die in a car crash n she says 2 me "take care of jona n urself i love u"that just made me cry even more.then she gets to lake eola n sees me n says "nashi i was just kiddin i wanted to see if you loved me"i was so pissed off at her that i didn't even talk to her.then after that my whole famliy went 2 church street n all there was there was some clubs.thats all it's not like it used 2 b4 when it had n arcade n shit.neways we were walkin n i saw some chicks they were really hott i mean wow lol the guys there were okay.after we walked abit we came back home n my mom told me that jimmy called me but that i couldn't call him back.wtf??"i can't call one of my friends"i told her n she's like "no, you can't call him back or J.T"thats really gay.sometimes my mom can be a real heartless bitch.well that was how my day went.cya lata
love ya lots
~nashi